I´ve made a crazy decision

I am staying in Tuxtla now until July.

I know. What? I said I was coming home in january, then in february, then in march, now july??? I´m not even quite sure what I am thinking, when I remember that that means I will be here during the hottest few months that exist on earth.

Here is what happened:

I was talking with my friend Ann about how sometimes I want to go home because I´m homesick sometimes, but secretely I´m not ready to leave my life here. I feel like I´ve just gotten adjusted. I just today went to a beautiful park and decided there are many things I like about tuxtla and have not experienced yet. I have just mastered the transportation, I know the best places, I know how to live here and have gotten used to the life. I know people now when I go to public places and I´m just not ready to finish my time here yet. I still want to travel to the jungle to several other touristic sites....Apart from this, Mckinley said she wanted to visit me and if I left she could not. Apart from this, if I left in February as planned, I wouldn´t have the money to do all the things I want to do as far as traveling afterwards.

Just as I was thinking I would like to stay a bit longer, I was offered a job by a friend.

It´s at a really cool english school that offers me basically the same salary for less work. The school is really relaxed, has a garden and a laid back atmosphere with all sorts of resources for the teachers and allows as much creativity as I want. It will be a challenge, because I´ll be teaching lower levels and I will be teaching 2 childrens classes!!! I will start in January.

There are a few things that make me nervous about this decision; one is talking with the director of my current school. I think she´ll be mad that I haven´t given her more warning.

The second is that if Edwin passes his test, he will be moving in March. Which leaves me here, alone in Tuxtla for april-july. I know that four months passes very quickly, and especially if I have some friends, which I do have more of. I could spend the time improving my spanish, taking fun classes, playing, basically doing a million things...but it´s still scary because I feel like I´ll be very alone when he leaves, IF he passes of test.

Anyway, that´s the decision. I won´t be coming home for a while, but when I do, it will be autumn, my favorite season, and I will definately look foward to that.

Ah, I´m still not sure it´s the right decision. I mean, I think it probably is, but a part of me thinks it is not. Oh my goodness, I need some advice. I am so stressed out right now.